It has been a while since I posted properly. Life has been one enormous set of transitions and changes since March. Life goes on and I am still getting settled, though I don’t know how well I’ll be truly settled. As I shared in a previous “post” I have in rapid succession found both a car and a place to live, so some of the pressing needs have been met. As I find my way in a new job, old community, and place I haven’t been in for a while ironically my car’s model is a Compass. My new apartment is very close to work and on better, cooler days I may have the luxury of walking or biking to work. I’ll be leaving Bumpass once again in less than two months, only to move into the town of Louisa – from the pan into the fire?
Work is going well and this past week I’ve been able to move past the computer system and started to engage people. While not the perfect job I am enjoying what I am tasked with and look forward to getting to know the community and people I serve better. Funny to hear myself say this, but people I like – the computers I hate! One real blessing of the new job is a great and patient director and team of co-workers, I couldn’t ask for much more than that.
Life is going to remain undone and I will probably have to continue living in the borderlands and unsettled places. All of my life I’ve lived in the borderlands: on the edge of Louisa and Hanover, on the border of Virginia and North Carolina, at the crossroads of the Orient and the West, between being accepted and rejected, and married/unmarried. Another season of borderlands living is typical and I’ll just have to wait and see how God carries me through. It has been difficult going through this time without a church family, but until I leave Bumpass again I am just going to have to bide my Sundays with the dog and family. It almost feels at times I’ll never be part of an ecclesial community again. Like the branch I shot down the other week by accident I still feel displaced and harshly uprooted from where I should be, and I don’t know if and how I can shake that feeling again.